Just not as happy

Hi ya'all doing?

Well, too much has happened. It's October and almost 1 month after I last posted. Well, I am still looking for a job. It just so disheartening. There just have been too many interviews and no job offers. I'm stressed because of it. Truthfully, I'm already feeling that I wasted my parents' money because I can't find a job.

And of course, I have not been bumming around! If you follow my deviant, I have a few updates. First is my version of the mad hatter. Maybe you won't understand it, he actually has a background story that I am not yet ready to share (surprise!). He is one of my favorite characters I have ever come up yet.

Next is a drawing I made after I watched Legend of the Guardians: the Owls of Ga'Hoole. Do you think its nice?

Then a drawing inspired from a commercial I was watching: a ballerina.

Lastly, a little something personal. A chibi me. Just a little something out of the ordinary.

Well, something is keeping me busy, when it is complete, I will tell you more about it.

Oh and I reopened my carbonmade. These are just some of the things I did. Another portfolio. You can't have too much portfolio can you? haha. (link)

I am feeling down recently with me not having a job. I hope brighter days will come my way. I hope you have better luck than me. and If you happen to read this blog and you also happened to like my work, feel free to contact me and lift me out of this misery. haha.

Great Sunday Mornings

How you all been doing? It has almost been two months since I last blogged. Hopefully I will be graduating this October (when I get one of my subjects to be credited). I hope to march and get my diploma and work as soon as possible. I have actually been looking for a job these past few weeks. Three of them replied but only two scheduled for an interview. Sadly, there is also another one that called me one night and it was a pyramiding scam. I won't lose hope! I really believe that when something happens in your life, its really meant for you. If they don't call, well, I will try not to lose hope!

Also, I bought my own tablet! YEY! I'm really really really happy with it. I have been practicing and also to add it with my portfolio. You can always visit my deviantart site on links listed on the side. You can also click the direct links here.

So the first one (link) is my first art with my tablet. the line art was done months ago that I can't even remember. I reserved it when one day I am able to own a tablet which I did :). The second is a fan art for Ragnarok (yes the Korean game) here is the link. That is my knight which I am playing. Next is another fan art (link). I figured that I need to work on my coloring. When I started drawing I used to do lots of fan art until I was satisfied with it and then made my own drawing style. If I was going to improve on coloring my art, I guess I have to turn back to doing fan arts right? Well, I actually don't know but it's worth a try. Here is my latest (link). I tried experimenting a little with color and lines. The main problem I have is doing the shading and lighting to give it a more 3D image. I want to continue to learn so that I can improve. If you have suggestions or comments I'll be happy to know about them Just leave a message :)

As promised, I said that I also am going to learn 3D. I did. I took up 3DMODEL. These are just the few things I did for that subject (link). I am leaving you with my final project for that subject. Hope it makes you smile :) It's just a great Sunday morning today

Nostalgia

I'll be graduating soon when everything falls into place. I am really hoping that everything is falling into place.

When you graduate, you work. For those who do not work as soon as they graduate, they either take their time before they do or they study again. Well, in my case I have to work. I want to study, a masters degree perhaps? But maybe I'll do it some other time.

When you work, you think about what kind of work you want to do. I took a course that focuses more on educating other people through multimedia. To tell you the truth, I am more concerned about the multimedia than educating other people. I am not much of a fan of education, not that I have something against it. I just don't enjoy it. And because I took a course related to education, I am considering a career in education where I will not enjoy or something in the field of arts but very hard to get through but, undoubtedly, I will enjoy. I do not want to sound whinny... I am just thinking that having a career in education will make me feel safe... And well, perusing what I love (graphic arts) is a risk that I m not sure I am willing to take considering my other circumstances.

Half of me wants to stay at school, being at my comfort zone and half of me wants everything to get this done and over with.

I remembered when I was 12 or so, I sometimes stop and ponder on little things like the future. That when I close my eyes now then I open them again I'll be 20. Almost ten years has passed most of the things changed, you'll never believe it when I say I still do the same thing but instead of opening my eyes then I'll be 20, when I open my eyes I'll be 30. I'll come back to this blog and laugh all about it. Next thing I'll know I'll be 40.

Well, just to make this blog a little lighter, why don't you check out what I have been doing for the past few months. I did all of the in Blender. This is the 3d chess set and the 2nd version I made (link), this is the first one (link) and the chess pieces (link). Of course, feel free to check out my deviantart any time. the link is just at the right side of my blog :)

PC take down!

Well, then. Last Tuesday we had a terrible storm that night. The winds were hurling, some of the roofs were flying and trees were bending. Of course, I should have anticipated they were going to cut off the electricity. I wasn't able to charge my laptop or my cell. Usually, they would have restored electricity around half a day or so... but they didn't. I think the bagyo (typhoon) did more damage than anyone anticipated.

We did not have electricity for about 24 hours or so. I was bored. Then I remembered I told my boyfriend I would take down my old computer if I had the time. The opportunity presented itself. Why I wanted to dismantle it? Well, it has been sitting downstairs for ages. It broke down, I think, two years ago. I just kept the parts. I did not know what to do with it yet. Then the second PC also broke down. I guess we have a reason to buy a new PC now.

Here are some pictures that I took. It entertained me for about an hour or so, I think.

The Mother board

The Processor

AMD duron

For the past week I have not been able to update, I have been really really busy. I do have a few artworks in my deviant which is my business card and an art work I did in paint tool SAI. I am currently studying 3D Modeling. I do have some of my works but I'm lazy to upload them. So, until next time. Wait for the update. I'll make sure to upload my 3d works :)

Schools to Teeth

First week of school started last week. As always, 1st day is always a pain. It's not that I don't like going to school, it's just a pain. You know what I mean?

It is my third day on pain killers. Why? Well, my last wisdom tooth is growing. Well, I think it is the last and hopefully it is. My mom told me that when I was a baby, I used to have fevers if my teeth are growing. That explains the pain I am feeling right now. It's really not so bad unless I start eating lunch and dinner. I feel so old right now since I can't munch on my food so I choose foods that are really easy to bite and swallow. The worst feeling is when you get up in the morning. Sometimes, it just hurts so much that I wake up because of it.

So much for wanting to gain some weight for the past two weeks. My friends told me I look more haggard and thin since they last saw me. I also can't eat too much sold foods since my tooth hurts. How can I gain some weight???

BTW, if you're wondering what happened to my last post, well, I did not get any tickets. I know, it sucks. Sex and the City is not my thing anyways. But, oh well. I'm still pissed whenever I remember it.

that's it for now. Hope when your wisdom tooth grows, you don;t feel the pain I am feeling right now. haha. Smile :)

Disappointment

I can't put into words how disappointed I am right now. It just made my good day turn into a very bad day.

I woke up in the morning and noticed that today is not as hot as these past few days. I thought to myself that summer will soon be over. I went out of my room and down to the kitchen to do my usual routine every morning which is to clean up the messes made last night, put the dished back where it belongs and make ice. When I went down, my mom was already awake and did most of the things I intend to do so instead I made the ice. Once done, I took my seat in front of the TV and watch.

While watching, I saw our cable provider's(SkyCable) ad last Saturday. They were giving out free 2 tickets to Prince of Persia for this Friday for the first 80 subscribers who would call. I called last Saturday and inquired if those tickets were still available. They told me they were so the agent told me that they already reserved me the tickets. She also told me that They will call again to give me the details to when and how it can be claimed. I said ok and waited.

Tuesday came and still no call. I was passing the time until 10am because it was the time when the people responsible for the freebies start or whatever. I called and wanted to inquire when can I claim the tickets. The agent I am speaking with told me that they would call me again for around 10-15mins. So I waited. Good thing, they really did call me back. The agent I am speaking with told me that the tickets were no longer available. I was not able to reserve the tickets and they already ran out of tickets to give. I was so pissed off ! The agent I spoke to told me she already reserved the tickets for me last Saturday and now this other agent is telling me I did not. Of course, I will not go down without a fight. I asked her now what do we do. It was their error and not mine. She offered me the next premiere movie which is Sex and the City 2 showing in June 2. But then, they still cannot give the ticket so she would call me again when they can give the tickets. I just agreed since I think that would be the best thing she could have offered to me. If they did not call, well, I just have to make a scene again.

I was really patient enough to be calm and all since I sympathize with the call center agents there. It's just that I had my hopes up for this movie and wanted to watch it. They confirmed it and all. Now... There is nothing to watch anymore. I got so disappointed until now.

Anyway, last night I missed making manipulated photos so I did this and this. Which do you think is better?

Two weeks of Bum-tastic Tragedies

I have been actually procrastinating to write this blog since I have been so lazy these past two weeks. I have so much to tell that is why I am lazy to do so. haha.

First of all, I want to tell you my first job experience. It's not actually related to my course. It's more of a seasonal job but it I think I'll consider this my first real job experience. I got my first job in a call center company. Although I told myself I won't end up there... with the harshness of life, I was forced to apply there.

Here in the Philippines, call center is a fast growing trend because it's high paying, easy money and does not actually require a degree. I got a seasonal job for 1-800 flowers.com (I think this flower shop is quite famous in the States). It was a 2week job. So, for the 1st week we had training and then the following we went to the floor to go live. It was a fun experience especially people I met there and become friends with. If ever you called or ordered flowers from 1-800 flowers.com for mother's day, maybe you have spoken to me :P

With that, I can now say that a call center job is not for me. Everything we had to say was scripted. Everything was repetitive. On top of that, it was a graveyard shift to accommodate U.S. time frame. I had to be there by 11pm and my shift ends at 10am. I get to arrive home by 11-12pm. I lost my sense of time. I did not even know what day it was. The worst part there is that it is summer. It is so hard to sleep in the afternoon when it is very hot. May be if it was not summer, it would have been better. I also lost weight because of that. So these past two weeks that I have been bumming around, I want to get my weight back and chuck a few extra pounds. It's not good to be too skinny.

Next is that I found a good blogger. I stumbled upon his blog somehow from link of links. I like his way of blogging. It reminds me how I blog. You can go check it out here and these are my two favorite post from him here and here. This is also my first time to promote another fellow blogger. I hope you find him funny and witty.

By the way, to the people who are commenting here I encourage you to comment something about the blog post not just saying random "that's great" or "I like it" then leaving your blog link after. I would really appreciate it. Thanks :D