Girl Friend

This past month I have been thinking how little to none I have with having friends that are girls. The type of girl friends that I would have liked to ask to go shopping or the ones I would have asked to come with me for a summer get-a-way.

I blame my college for having more boys than girls and I blame myself in picking a college that boys are more interested in than girls. I could have went to somewhere the ratio of girls and boys is 1:1 instead of 1:10. I also blame myself being unsociable and timid around girls. I tend to shut up, stay quiet and keep to myself especially when I really don't know the person.

I get jealous at times when people don't ask me to go out. And at times I feel really really bad that I can't go even if I wanted to because of other obligations. Look at me, writing on my blog that I pretend somebody reads.

Now, my world feels so tiny and I want to extend it somehow.

It's not that I don't want to have friends that are mostly composed of boys but instead I wish I had more close girl friends (and I emphasize on girl friends being plural) instead of having just one to even it out.

When Reality Hits

Hello again blog world. How are you? I'm fine, thank you. I just passed by because I thought about you from time to time and my last blog entry was last October 2010. Look how time flies. It's April 2011 and it's almost half a year after my last blog entry. Well, I'm here in front of my computer typing this entry. As we speak, there is no particular topic for this but just an update of everything.

Everything is fine so far. I did manage to get a job. It's not lavishing as I thought I would have but as old people say (and I am counting myself as old already), "what the heck, it pays the bills. I can't complain!"

I have read past blog entries because from time to time people leave comments for me to publish. I really thank you for reading my blog posts and at the same time share some thoughts with me. I don't know if there is such a thing as getting too old for blogging. But I hope I don't ever get too old for it. I don;t know if it's just me but when I read past blog entries, it's just interesting to know what I was feeling at that time of my life. And sometimes, I remember past experiences that I had forgotten. It really makes me smile.

On the other side of things, while I was looking for a job, I did lots and lots of art. You can always go to my deviantart site anytime (do tell me if you liked something from there ;) ). I updated my business card (link). I also did a Halloween theme for halloween 2010 (link). Then I got obsessive with playing cards and made a character out of Ace of Spades. Then I saw this art from another deviant and I tried to do my own version of pepsi and coke, ofcourse my own style (link). Then my last art entry was for Christmas which is the Christmas Angel. Lots lots more if you care to visit.

It's just amazing what you can do when you have so much free time. And I only had less then a quarter. I do have pending art pieces waiting to get finished. I am halfway or maybe less with them. I have lot of stuff going on and when I do have the time, I just feel tired and don't want to finish them. When I have the heart again to paint, I will. I hope you will be looking forward to them as I am. Well, 'til next time.

Dessert Escape

This cold rainy night, I was craving for a dessert. I don't care what, I just need to eat a dessert. So I searched online something easy to make. The big problem is that we don't have most of the ingredients of the desserts especially berries. I mean you know, berries here in the Philippines are crazy expensive so we don't have it in our refrigerators. And the dessert craving was driving me crazy. I was telling my bf I would eat our sugar if I don't find something to eat for dessert.

I keep on stumbling on s'mores online. We did have chocolate and we did have graham crackers but no mallows. And heating the chocolate or mallows would not be a problem with the microwave.

Well then, I wanted to share this quick and easy dessert if one night, like me, you are looking for a quick and easy dessert and something you would most likely find in the kitchen.

You will need:

1. microwave
2. graham crackers
3. sugar
4. chocolate
5. Mallows (if you have mallows hanging around the house)

Steps:

• Take a piece of graham put it on a microwavable plate (something that would fit your microwave. DUH)
• What we had in the kitchen were chocolate chips, so I sprinkled the chocolate chips on my graham. If you don't have chocolate chips, bar(s) of chocolate would be fine.
• Sprinkle on some sugar. You can skip this if you think the chocolate you have is sweet enough.
• (optional) If you have mallows hanging around the house you could also put that. The microwave will melt the mallows I just don't know how long but you can experiment on it and get back to me how long you microwaved the mallows with chocolate(s). I'm not exactly a culinary expert just a person who has great love for food :) and I got it form my mom. haha
• Put in the plate with the graham in the microwave and heat it for 40seconds. You can experiment on this until the chocolate looks like its melting and when you touch it, it feels soft and squishy.
• Take another graham and sandwich the chocolate and sugar (and mallows).

TADA! Easy! Now you have a dessert. YUM. Let's call this s'mores that fit whatever you have lying around the house. haha! take that!

Just not as happy

Hi ya'all doing?

Well, too much has happened. It's October and almost 1 month after I last posted. Well, I am still looking for a job. It just so disheartening. There just have been too many interviews and no job offers. I'm stressed because of it. Truthfully, I'm already feeling that I wasted my parents' money because I can't find a job.

And of course, I have not been bumming around! If you follow my deviant, I have a few updates. First is my version of the mad hatter. Maybe you won't understand it, he actually has a background story that I am not yet ready to share (surprise!). He is one of my favorite characters I have ever come up yet.

Next is a drawing I made after I watched Legend of the Guardians: the Owls of Ga'Hoole. Do you think its nice?

Then a drawing inspired from a commercial I was watching: a ballerina.

Lastly, a little something personal. A chibi me. Just a little something out of the ordinary.

Well, something is keeping me busy, when it is complete, I will tell you more about it.

Oh and I reopened my carbonmade. These are just some of the things I did. Another portfolio. You can't have too much portfolio can you? haha. (link)

I am feeling down recently with me not having a job. I hope brighter days will come my way. I hope you have better luck than me. and If you happen to read this blog and you also happened to like my work, feel free to contact me and lift me out of this misery. haha.

Great Sunday Mornings

How you all been doing? It has almost been two months since I last blogged. Hopefully I will be graduating this October (when I get one of my subjects to be credited). I hope to march and get my diploma and work as soon as possible. I have actually been looking for a job these past few weeks. Three of them replied but only two scheduled for an interview. Sadly, there is also another one that called me one night and it was a pyramiding scam. I won't lose hope! I really believe that when something happens in your life, its really meant for you. If they don't call, well, I will try not to lose hope!

Also, I bought my own tablet! YEY! I'm really really really happy with it. I have been practicing and also to add it with my portfolio. You can always visit my deviantart site on links listed on the side. You can also click the direct links here.

So the first one (link) is my first art with my tablet. the line art was done months ago that I can't even remember. I reserved it when one day I am able to own a tablet which I did :). The second is a fan art for Ragnarok (yes the Korean game) here is the link. That is my knight which I am playing. Next is another fan art (link). I figured that I need to work on my coloring. When I started drawing I used to do lots of fan art until I was satisfied with it and then made my own drawing style. If I was going to improve on coloring my art, I guess I have to turn back to doing fan arts right? Well, I actually don't know but it's worth a try. Here is my latest (link). I tried experimenting a little with color and lines. The main problem I have is doing the shading and lighting to give it a more 3D image. I want to continue to learn so that I can improve. If you have suggestions or comments I'll be happy to know about them Just leave a message :)

As promised, I said that I also am going to learn 3D. I did. I took up 3DMODEL. These are just the few things I did for that subject (link). I am leaving you with my final project for that subject. Hope it makes you smile :) It's just a great Sunday morning today

Nostalgia

I'll be graduating soon when everything falls into place. I am really hoping that everything is falling into place.

When you graduate, you work. For those who do not work as soon as they graduate, they either take their time before they do or they study again. Well, in my case I have to work. I want to study, a masters degree perhaps? But maybe I'll do it some other time.

When you work, you think about what kind of work you want to do. I took a course that focuses more on educating other people through multimedia. To tell you the truth, I am more concerned about the multimedia than educating other people. I am not much of a fan of education, not that I have something against it. I just don't enjoy it. And because I took a course related to education, I am considering a career in education where I will not enjoy or something in the field of arts but very hard to get through but, undoubtedly, I will enjoy. I do not want to sound whinny... I am just thinking that having a career in education will make me feel safe... And well, perusing what I love (graphic arts) is a risk that I m not sure I am willing to take considering my other circumstances.

Half of me wants to stay at school, being at my comfort zone and half of me wants everything to get this done and over with.

I remembered when I was 12 or so, I sometimes stop and ponder on little things like the future. That when I close my eyes now then I open them again I'll be 20. Almost ten years has passed most of the things changed, you'll never believe it when I say I still do the same thing but instead of opening my eyes then I'll be 20, when I open my eyes I'll be 30. I'll come back to this blog and laugh all about it. Next thing I'll know I'll be 40.

Well, just to make this blog a little lighter, why don't you check out what I have been doing for the past few months. I did all of the in Blender. This is the 3d chess set and the 2nd version I made (link), this is the first one (link) and the chess pieces (link). Of course, feel free to check out my deviantart any time. the link is just at the right side of my blog :)

PC take down!

Well, then. Last Tuesday we had a terrible storm that night. The winds were hurling, some of the roofs were flying and trees were bending. Of course, I should have anticipated they were going to cut off the electricity. I wasn't able to charge my laptop or my cell. Usually, they would have restored electricity around half a day or so... but they didn't. I think the bagyo (typhoon) did more damage than anyone anticipated.

We did not have electricity for about 24 hours or so. I was bored. Then I remembered I told my boyfriend I would take down my old computer if I had the time. The opportunity presented itself. Why I wanted to dismantle it? Well, it has been sitting downstairs for ages. It broke down, I think, two years ago. I just kept the parts. I did not know what to do with it yet. Then the second PC also broke down. I guess we have a reason to buy a new PC now.

Here are some pictures that I took. It entertained me for about an hour or so, I think.

The Mother board

The Processor

AMD duron

For the past week I have not been able to update, I have been really really busy. I do have a few artworks in my deviant which is my business card and an art work I did in paint tool SAI. I am currently studying 3D Modeling. I do have some of my works but I'm lazy to upload them. So, until next time. Wait for the update. I'll make sure to upload my 3d works :)